Tuesday Tantrums!

Well, yet again no news to report but I guess I just need to let off a little steam!

Jessica has been having Terrible Two Tantrums all day today, not helped by the fact I am having to wait in all day for a courier to collect a parcel! It's days like this that I wish I could just afford to go back to work and have some time out from them. I love both the girls to end of the earth, but after nearly 3 years at home, I'm starting to feel like I need a little bit of a life for me, time to myself to rediscover who I am.

I am a mum and a wife, but what about the "me" that I was before kids - where has she gone?

I get very little to no time on my own. Even when the girls are in bed, Dave is about. I just crave a few hours on my own every now and again..... but its almost impossible to find the time!

Dave dropped a little bit of a bombshell on me last night. There is a job for him at the CPU (the office where he is working at the moment) as a civvy once he is out. We dont know whether it will be any good for us as a family long-term, but maybe in the short term until we are a little more sure of what is going to happen.

Still nervous over the christmas fair I am doing tomorrow afternoon - times are now confirmed at 3.30pm-6pm. Thats great, but what can I do with the girls - they will want their tea by 5pm! Dave is asking his boss if he can leave at 2pm tomorrow, so fingers crossed that happens, if not, Im not sure I will be able to do it or not. Dad has said he can help out if he isnt too busy, but based on the way things have been going for him this week, I cant see it happening!

Received a parcel from an online friend today containing some GORGEOUS scrapbook goodies for making the Soapbox Scrapbook after christmas, she is such a little angel that I cant even begin to know how to thank her, words just dont seem enough somehow.

I have received a lot of online support, both emotional and practical from a lot of people lately, and I really want to thank them all, but again, I dont feel words are enough.

Well, thats pretty much it for today..... I'll sign off now before I end up boring you all even more!!

Love you all xxx